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Lizzy MacKenzie's avatar

This is so beautifully written!! I relate so much to your “feeling of finality to every milestone”! There are moments where I just stare at Emily. Looking over every inch of her face, I’m wondering if she has changed in any way. Do I not see it because it’s so natural that no part of me should red flag it. My brain can’t see that tiny over night growth so I wait till that next mile stone. For my eyes to see the changes and my heart to feel the finality of it! ♥️

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Caitlin Kindervatter-Clark's avatar

Yes! Thank you for reading! ❤️

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Haven Casaday's avatar

I love this. It’s so often how I feel, even with only one child that’s almost 13! The more I hear “Mom!” screamed from the top of the stairs, or “Mom, I need you!”, or “I need help”… the more I crave the freedom and space of silence and not having to be so available all the time.

But then there are the tender moments of “mom, scratch my back just a little more”, the sleepy good byes or the deeper conversations and I remember how much motherhood is just one big juxtaposition!

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Caitlin Kindervatter-Clark's avatar

It's still hard for me to believe that Beckett is 13; he looks SO GROWN UP in your photos! Thanks for reading. <3

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Carla H's avatar

Loved this particularly because it’s funny, tender, insightful (loved “I’ve read Winnicott”) and helps me feel kinder to my own late mother—no wonder she loved to work😀

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Caitlin Kindervatter-Clark's avatar

Haha right? Thanks for being such a kind and thoughtful reader!

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